Sunday, October 9, 2011
This morning as I contemplate Thanksgiving and all that I am thankful for I am compelled to tell the love story of baby Keenan. I don't take it for granted that I have been blessed now three times with three beautiful and entirely different souls. You'd think it might have gotten old by now but each child is a pure miracle. However, I'm not sure if it's the fact that I am almost certain Keenan will be our last child or old age, maturity, spiritual growth or a combination of all of it but I am in total awe with this new little soul that we have in our lives in a different way. Being a parent is gruesome at times, stressful, confusing and it takes its toll. The dark side of parenting can often overshadow the whole experience making it hard to see the lightness. I am struck by these emotions of pure gratitude that we were chosen as his parents.
After a physically and emotionally tolling pregnancy Keenan arrived perfectly July 15th. A spiritual counsellor/psychic fortold of some issues we would have with Keenan and for nearly all of the last trimester I silently stressed. When he arrived perfect and brilliant I was at ease, but also knew as soon as I saw him and loved his little spirit, that no matter what he was or became, we would love him anyways. Since then I have savoured every little diaper change, singing songs and kissing in the chubby folds of his neck. I delight in every one of his first experiences, taking the time to let things occur naturally. Being my third child, I feel more at ease. There is no rush for each milestone but it is a joy each time something new emerges. The sweet smiles and coos, reaching for toys, and sleeping through the night.
I always had it in the back of my mind that I wasn't done having children after we had Ruby but I wasn't really certain if a third child would actually come to fruition. So, even after he's been in our lives for nearly 3 months I am still awestruck that we have him. I am thankful for each little soul that I have brought into this world and they each have their own story. But, this is Keenan's story and Thank God for him.