This morning as I contemplate Thanksgiving and all that I am thankful for I am compelled to tell the love story of baby Keenan. I don't take it for granted that I have been blessed now three times with three beautiful and entirely different souls. You'd think it might have gotten old by now but each child is a pure miracle. However, I'm not sure if it's the fact that I am almost certain Keenan will be our last child or old age, maturity, spiritual growth or a combination of all of it but I am in total awe with this new little soul that we have in our lives in a different way. Being a parent is gruesome at times, stressful, confusing and it takes its toll. The dark side of parenting can often overshadow the whole experience making it hard to see the lightness. I am struck by these emotions of pure gratitude that we were chosen as his parents. 
After a physically and emotionally tolling pregnancy Keenan arrived perfectly July 15th. A spiritual counsellor/psychic fortold of some issues we would have with Keenan and for nearly all of the last trimester I silently stressed. When he arrived perfect and brilliant I was at ease, but also knew as soon as I saw him and loved his little spirit, that no matter what he was or became, we would love him anyways. Since then I have savoured every little diaper change, singing songs and kissing in the chubby folds of his neck. I delight in every one of his first experiences, taking the time to let things occur naturally. Being my third child, I feel more at ease. There is no rush for each milestone but it is a joy each time something new emerges. The sweet smiles and coos, reaching for toys, and sleeping through the night.
I always had it in the back of my mind that I wasn't done having children after we had Ruby but I wasn't really certain if a third child would actually come to fruition. So, even after he's been in our lives for nearly 3 months I am still awestruck that we have him. I am thankful for each little soul that I have brought into this world and they each have their own story. But, this is Keenan's story and Thank God for him.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Beautiful Tammy. Yes, you have been blessed and I love your attitude! I don't remember all of Jessica's milestones because I was going through cancer treatments but I am enjoying both my children's milestones each day because I am here to experience them. You should see how much they have grown. We should come visit!
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Kindest regards, Dana :)